This is me in 2005. I was 29.
I was going through the toughest 18 months of my life.
This photo was taken at a party, just as my spiritual journey was beginning…
Looking back I had to lean in to that spiritual journey. But… I had NO idea what was in store!
I’ve been studying the Law of Increase this week. It’s part of my Working With The Law study program (download a copy of the book here).
And I got to thinking about everything that has happened since this spiritual journey began and how this Law of Increase or Praise has COMPLETELY changed me!
I moved to Sydney in 2004. I’d just had 3 years of living at home, going to University, being around old friends, and coming to understand who I was and what I wanted from the world. It had been a few years of creative energy that I’d never experienced before.
Then it all shifted…
I was in a weird pseudo-relationship with this guy who wasn’t very nice. We weren’t really together but he seemed to need a lot of control over me.
I was working in a job that was easy… way too easy. I was bored out of my mind, whilst also unwilling to challenge myself to get another job because I felt flat and uninspired by everything.
I never had any money.
I seemed to be excessively emotional all the time.
And I felt that I had no friends. Mostly because the few friends I had weren’t all that nice.
Looking back the image that comes to mind is like a jigsaw puzzle but none of the pieces are snapping together. Nothing was drawn together.
But, you know, there was goodness too.
I was freelance writing on the side. Which I could do because my day job was so easy and not at all taxing.
One of my writing jobs led directly to my spiritual journey, because I was sent out to interview a psychic-healer one day who became my teacher over the next 12 months.
I was learning to stand up for myself. Which I couldn’t have done without that not very nice guy always pushing at me. And I was strangely conscious of this, like I knew it all had a purpose… but I didn’t know how I knew that.
And that particular night at that particular party I made a new friend, who became one of my closest friends over the next 5 years.
You could say that since 2005 I’ve come to understand what it means to be thankful. Or more specifically RESPECTFUL of all that comes and goes in our lives.
In hindsight, all that hardship caused me to go looking for some goodness to connect to.
I didn’t realize at the time that I needed to be reconnected to myself. That all those pieces really did need to be drawn together to form a complete picture.
But it’s the same way for virtually everyone I speak to about their own search for meaning on this spiritual journey.
So when that psychic-healer I interviewed suggested I join her meditation classes I said yes. A few months later I was working for her. And I began to receive guidance that ensured I saw things a little more clearly.
I was told that asking for MORE was OK. And it was even necessary to reach fulfillment…
I received guidance on how to disconnect from the people who weren’t right for me. That is, to ask for more from my friendships.
I received guidance on building that life of working for myself that had been there in the back of my mind for a LONG time. That is, to ask for more from my working life.
I began to draw all those pieces of my SOUL-PUZZLE together into one comprehensive, more fulfilling and more complete story. There IS more available for me. I’m not meant to just put up with all the shit that people do, and how they bring me down and how unhappy I am as a result.
In 2005, there is no way I could have predicted, visualized, manifest, understood or even imagined the life I’m leading now.
I had hopes and dreams. I just didn’t really think they’d ever happen!
The Law of Increase is also the law of praise or in my mind the law of gratitude and respect. What we praise grows. What we are thankful for and respectful of, grows.
So, on a really simple, but deeply life-changing level, I’ve learned to praise myself instead of beat myself up, since 2005.
That’s caused a HUGE amount of growth, change, healing, evolution… from hating my job, to running my own business, to choosing better friends, to traveling more…and generally just having the courage to do things I would have NEVER asked for previously.
I believe in God, angels, spirit guides, and the Soul we each carry within us today. And I use all the support, love and guidance that comes from that.
In 2005 I just had no idea who amazing this spiritual space really was.
And I’m incredibly thankful for all that this awakening has given to me.
But I’ve also felt a certain resistance to The Law of Increase and Praise this week.
When I tried to break it down into something more tangible I felt that I was resisting the very meaning of the word PRAISE.
What does praise really look like?
At times on this journey, I’ve assumed it was the opposite of fear. And because I felt so much fear it was impossible for me to access.
But it’s really there regardless of how much fear we hold.
I used to think that successful people were somehow better than me. Today I see that they are just more prepared to move through their fear. And more prepared to focus on that praise, thankfulness, and respect.
We are each here to draw together those pieces of our own soul puzzle so that we can live more freely and openly. And certainly more authentically.
And I feel that PRAISE is a big part of that. We cannot come together as a whole being until we learn to move out of the fear of ‘why me?’ and into the respectfulness of ‘Ok, what does this mean for me?’
It’s impossible not to increase in light, love, fulfillment when we ask what the meaning is!
But I have something else to say about fear too…
Joan of Arc may have said: I am not afraid. I was born to do this.
But Georgia O’Keefe, the artist, said: I’ve been absolutely terrified every moment of my life and I’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing I wanted to do.
I can see how powerful Praise is. I can see how my life has Increased and the lives of my clients and my online community have increased too. I get comments all the time from people telling me that they are so much more aware, motivated and inspired through my coaching or even my blog posts.
But I’m terrified too. Just like everyone else is.
I had to learn to praise through understanding these Laws, instead of bully myself through that fear.
And I can still get it wrong and slip into fear. But what I do now is that I get back to basics…
I let the Teachers carry me when things get tough. I let my intuition lead me. I let Wisdom guide me.
That is, I let them just tell me what to do and I do it.
So I’m no Joan of Arc!
But maybe it is just about getting back to basics when fear amps up…
Follow the voice of guidance, which is the light and love of praise already, instead of the voice of fear.